Date : Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Time : 10:16 PM
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Exasperation. This is how I feel few days back, super paranoid too. That's why I sounded emo the last few days hahah and I think the stuffs I said also scare my family too. But I guess and hope that I am back to my normal self cos in the past, I always tell myself that it ain't that bad as what I think to enlighten myself and it usually works but not recently but yep brainwashing myself that it works now and forever! Things happen for a reason no?? Oh well, I must be experiencing mood swing...Can I go back to the life in sec/poly cos it's so much simpler, not much stuffs to think about.

Tmr is New Year's Eve. Well, don't have the countdown mood compared to last yr. I don't like 2009 compared to 2008, hope that 2010 will be a better one :) Maybe that's becos I don't like changes, in fact I fear it cos uncertainty lingers but still I am adapting to it slowly even though I am reluctant to do so. That's life you see, ppl come and go in ur life but what they leave behind is memories, gd or bad I don't know. hahah
Went to JB with my mum, sis and my 3rd aunt n uncle. Shopping was alright only, not that great as what I expected but it was still a gd experience as it was ages since I last went in. Smth funny happened at Woodlands checkpt. My aunt was telling us that the biometric system was very easy and stuffs then all of us went through it except hers due to the person b4 her. And she panicked until the police told her, Don't panick don't panick and we were all laughing away. Alright, shldn't laugh cos that happened to me during Melbourne trip but I did not panicked and just go by the old method but the scissors case during Hong Kong trip did freaked me out alittle. LOL. Left ard 4pm, only to reach home at 5+ and my legs are aching now.

Checked exams results online, oh well I passed everything but not with flying colours. My family members were damn happy for me esp my parents and I feel a little bad and sad. By right, I should be contented to pass cos papers were really tough and given that I am quite slacked this time round, didn't really push myself that hard as my mind was in RMIT that time and just go try out the exams, withdraw and off to RMIT or like what I am doing now just try out 1 more sem. But by left, seeing my gpa n grades and comparing to what I did in poly, I really feel hmmm sad. But yea I think I am fine now after what my parents told me. When I told my dad I cleared everything and I can tell that he was damn happy and said gd that U passed and don't compare since U did the papers with that state of mind and be contented that U passed cos there are some that might have failed. Yep okie I think I get what he meant and yea Thank God for the blessing, be contented and not be greedy asking for more :) What is urs is urs, it's predestined.