Date : Thursday, December 31, 2009
Time : 7:47 PM
Title :

REFLECTIONS *4hours to 2010*

BYE 2009 and HELLO 2010. Though I don have the New Year mood now compared to last year.

2009 was a year filled with mixed feelings. The first 2 months were spend on rushing projects and mugging for exams but then it was stress with happiness. After which, all of us graduated in May from Singapore Polytechnic with a diploma in Chemical Engineering :) But it was also the time that all of us became closer and hopefully it will be friends forever. First get away trip with a few of my polyfriends to batam.

In august, I finally started my next phase of schooling life. After all the hardwork, got myself a place in Chemistry and Biological Chemistry in Nanyang Technological University. Life wasn't that great inside and was struggling all the way. Faced some tough challenges and some serious thoughts about what's next in life. Tough to be an adult yea.

All in all, did achieve all except 1 of my 2009 resolutions. So below is my checklist for 2009:

• Graduate with a diploma in hand.
• Get into NTU.
• Everyone in my family staying healthy & happy.
• Strong friendships made esp during the stage when I felt very lost, thankful for the encouragements from all. U guys made me feel like I am a small little gal being protected :)
• Get away trip to Melbourne and yay that was smth that I will remember forever!
• The last one, I shall keep it a secret as it's still not achieved yet.
• Ohh yea and my mum just bought me the watch! TYVM

So since I made New Year resolution in 2009, then I shall make another one for 2010. But then, not much difference from the old ones. There you go, may 2010 be a better one:

• Do well in school and make the right decision to stay or leave.
• Celebrate my 21st Birthday with my family and friends.
• Don't worry, be happy and healthy for everyone in my family.
• Get away trip to recharge.
• More time spend with my family and friends.
• And seeing 1/2 of my friends getting attached, of course the singles envy. Okie know what I mean right..

Date : Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Time : 10:16 PM
Title :

Exasperation. This is how I feel few days back, super paranoid too. That's why I sounded emo the last few days hahah and I think the stuffs I said also scare my family too. But I guess and hope that I am back to my normal self cos in the past, I always tell myself that it ain't that bad as what I think to enlighten myself and it usually works but not recently but yep brainwashing myself that it works now and forever! Things happen for a reason no?? Oh well, I must be experiencing mood swing...Can I go back to the life in sec/poly cos it's so much simpler, not much stuffs to think about.

Tmr is New Year's Eve. Well, don't have the countdown mood compared to last yr. I don't like 2009 compared to 2008, hope that 2010 will be a better one :) Maybe that's becos I don't like changes, in fact I fear it cos uncertainty lingers but still I am adapting to it slowly even though I am reluctant to do so. That's life you see, ppl come and go in ur life but what they leave behind is memories, gd or bad I don't know. hahah
Went to JB with my mum, sis and my 3rd aunt n uncle. Shopping was alright only, not that great as what I expected but it was still a gd experience as it was ages since I last went in. Smth funny happened at Woodlands checkpt. My aunt was telling us that the biometric system was very easy and stuffs then all of us went through it except hers due to the person b4 her. And she panicked until the police told her, Don't panick don't panick and we were all laughing away. Alright, shldn't laugh cos that happened to me during Melbourne trip but I did not panicked and just go by the old method but the scissors case during Hong Kong trip did freaked me out alittle. LOL. Left ard 4pm, only to reach home at 5+ and my legs are aching now.

Checked exams results online, oh well I passed everything but not with flying colours. My family members were damn happy for me esp my parents and I feel a little bad and sad. By right, I should be contented to pass cos papers were really tough and given that I am quite slacked this time round, didn't really push myself that hard as my mind was in RMIT that time and just go try out the exams, withdraw and off to RMIT or like what I am doing now just try out 1 more sem. But by left, seeing my gpa n grades and comparing to what I did in poly, I really feel hmmm sad. But yea I think I am fine now after what my parents told me. When I told my dad I cleared everything and I can tell that he was damn happy and said gd that U passed and don't compare since U did the papers with that state of mind and be contented that U passed cos there are some that might have failed. Yep okie I think I get what he meant and yea Thank God for the blessing, be contented and not be greedy asking for more :) What is urs is urs, it's predestined.

Date : Monday, December 28, 2009
Time : 12:12 AM
Title :

Pissed is the negative word while Disappointed is the positive word to describe what I am feeling now. True enough my sec sch gathering was a flop not because of the attendance. But more to do with some irresponsible bunch that made promises like nobody's business. Comeon, just say a simple NO if U don't feel like coming when we asked U but not YES then end up MIA or say what bullshit last min can't make it. Those are craps! Pussy for some I would say.. Some "lagi" best, yes yes and they told a lie which I found out eventually. If U wanna tell a lie that you are somewhere else which I assume that U can't use msn, then U jolly well block me in msn so that I won't see U online. Perhaps, I am the naive one afterall to believe what U said and I can only say that I am disappointed in U. Applause for those who came esp those that chiong down after recieving my call. I guess this is the reason why I like my poly peeps cos they are super on and won't pang seh, okie to be fair there are a minority but still not as many as this bunch.

Anyway, we did enjoy the Sunday afternoon chatting, scolding and eating. We had Manhattan for lunch and talking about old sch stuffs which was pretty funny. Followed by Starbucks as we got to find some place to seat and continue chatting. Parted at about 4+ and left for home and later to grandma's hse to fetch my mum n sis. Little gal was so cute, was teaching her colours then she can link purple to the song that goes papa bu zhai jia, wo qing ke ren jing zuo xia, zai jing yi bei cha as she mis pronounce purple as papa. LOL. Then off to Toa Payoh for dinner, wow waited for a super long time b4 we got to eat which spoils my appetite but I also feel bloated before that.


Travis, U are wearing a halo on ur head.


Another thanksgiving has come and gone. And what am I most thankful for? The truth. Sometimes it's the truth you have been trying not to face, or the truth that will change your life. Sometimes it's the truth that's a long time coming. Or the truth you have prayed would never see the light of day. Some truths may not be heard the way we hoped they would. But they linger, long after they have been said. But the kind of truth I'm most thankful for? The kind you never see coming, that falls right into your lap.

Date : Saturday, December 26, 2009
Time : 9:53 PM
Title :

We make our own fortunes, and call them fate. And what better excuse to choose a path than to insist it's our destiny? But at the end of the day, we all have to live with our choices...no matter who's looking over our shoulder.

Happy Boxing day! Did U guys enjoy boxing 1 another? haha my sis did actually, she drove me/us crazy with all those nonsense! This Sat don't feels like sat and it's just like another boring day. Maybe I will only treasure wkends once sch starts and I don want sch to start :( I have the pek chek feeling when I think abt school. So, Christmas is over and 2009 will soon be over too. I remembered my friends had a hard time telling me what's the diff btw New Year Resolution and wishes. Okie, I am sry that I still can't differentiate it hahah cos it seems the same to me. Yea so I make the same one again and see if it happens k, which I doubt so la...

Time passes so fast this few weeks. Last wk was still my poly christmas gathering and yea eating Tau Huay and crapping. Heng Hwu really super funny after he went into NS esp on the part when he showed us his hp to see his so called "gf" and followed by "us". Seriously I burst out into laughter after I saw those pics in his hp, it's so lame. I wonder when will we have our next gathering again! Anyway, take care and train hard guys cos I heard from some that the trainings are tedious. If there's a will, there's a way!
I am going to have my sec sch gathering tmr, hopefully not many will pang seh. :)
I am so into Gossip Girl once again and hahah I still think Chace Crawford is the most handsome one in GG! :)

Date : Friday, December 25, 2009
Time : 12:48 AM
Title :

Date : Thursday, December 24, 2009
Time : 11:52 AM
Title :

It's Christmas Eve, so fast going to be 2010. I still remembered vividly what happened last yr during this period of time, we were all rushing FYP reports, busy staying in school lib everyday but not forgetting the strong bonds formed among some of us. It will be smth that I will never forget.

We were supposed to register our modules online on Tues. Okie was a nerve-wrecking experience but still managed to register all except one. 5 modules shld be alright, an extra one don't make alot of diff to my timetable anyway. Then off to Shenton Way with my mum to settle some stuffs b4 heading to Orchard to meet my sis to shop for some Christmas gifts. Felt so releaxed these few days, been back watching Gossip Girl S3 but find it okie only, not much storyline. Then went to work with my sis, Pui Sauw and Cheai Wen at ZiKai's bookstore at First Toa Payoh SS to sell uniform. Gosh, so long didn wake up at 6am and it was quite fun selling uniform except for 1 F***ing woman who gave me shitty attitude until 1 parent also stared at her. Work ended ard 12+ so Pui Sauw and I went to Bugis to have our lunch and shop and she bought her Adidas watch from WINS at 30% off. I am also aimming at one. Pls chopped off my hands to stop me from buying. HAHAH or any kind souls willing to buy for me. LOL

Okie I shall go packed my room and bathe cos will be having another party later at home!

Craving for Waraku ytd and yep was super full from those creamy sauce.

Then we went to JCO to chat for like 2hrs +. Didn't know they also have Green Tea Frap though they called it Green Tea Freeze. Not bad but I still prefer Starbucks.

Will U be mine 1 fine day?? Pls pls pls 30% off leh!