Date : Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Time : 10:08 AM
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Week after week, day after day. I am just getting more and more tired and unhappy. I know my parents are worried and sad but I have no choice. Uni is just so tough that the giving up feeling is lingering around me. Those that know me well shld know that I have quite strong determination but then determination no longer works here. Doesn't mean that if U are determined enough, U will just pull through this stage, not so simple now.. I just feel as if I am like a rubber band, going to snap anytime. Maths tmr, I gt a strong feeling that I will be stunned when I looked at the qns just like tutorials. Crying has been a way to relieve stress for me in the past but no longer anymore now. So tired that I hope that exams can end as fast as possible so that I can rest mentally & physically in dec to decide what is next..

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In life, there are many decisions U have to make. As U grow older, the decisions become more important as it will decides ur future. But, 1 wrong decision might not be the end of the world as U can still decide again though it takes a longer time to reach ur destination. I shall make mine in Dec. :)
My dad came to my room last night and had a chat with me. I knew what he wanna say and I broke into tears even b4 started talking. Told him that I am under tremendous stress, smth that I never experienced so much in the past. And he told me to study what I can if cannot then decide again, just like what I mentioned b4 to see my results and if I m interested in continuing chemistry in dec. He told me that there's nth to be ashamed abt, don't have to care what ppl think but what matter the most is if U like what U r studying. Then told him maybe will study Business in SIM and he says he's fine with it but I gt to be very serious in choosing this time and touch wood if it doesn't work out again then he will help me decide what's next. Shall let God decides what's next..