Date : Sunday, May 03, 2009
Time : 10:57 PM
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SUNday. Probably that explains why the weather is so humid. As usual, went to grandma's hse n played with naughty gal. Supposed to attend the funeral wake with them but then I think it's lactose intolerance(blame it on the tea/cheese/milo) that caused the stomachache :( So, they went ahead while I went home instead.


I m still jobless. Hard to find one that is flexible as I need to learn driving n no work on wkends. Speaking abt driving, Mrs Sim is so efficient(or $ minded?) to call me to book for my next lesson but well no lesson for me this wk. Busy wk ahead I can imagine. But Thanks Yi Pei for the job offer, really pays well with a risk attached to it. Swine flu might hit any time n my parents don feel comfortable with me working due to my low immunity. Dad did thought of "employing" me to learn from Aunty Karin but he's afraid that that might cause anxiety in her. HAHA


While I was in my bed last night queuing up to go into dreamland, I thought about my life after this long holidays. University life should be 10X more stressful than poly. Friends' nicks in msn n facebook scares the hell out of me. I wonder if I made the right choice for choosing chemistry n not business or maybe some other courses. Well, whatever it takes, I'll try as I believe this is what God has planned for me. I will just do my best n hope for the best. In the mean time, just enjoy myself b4 the day comes..


My sis almost "serenade" stories of Hitler n Stalin to me just now. History and Social Studies! Subjects which I don even know how did I manage to study that time, not mentioning about other subjects to cope with. I can only say purely memorisation of the endless essays n vomit out the moment ur pen touches the foolscap. HAHA
Good Luck Sis for ur exams tmr ! Remember U reap what U sow :)


Was telling dad that thinking of how I cope in my sec sch/poly days was enough to send jitters down my spine. Simply Stressful n I survived up till this stage. Faith and moral supports from family and friends are definitely 2 of the factors I rely on :) I know my parents don wanna stress us up to excel in sch n thats why my dad said how nice if I own a chemical plant n U guys don have to work so hard. The worst scenario is to work in the chemical plant. Ahhh, I wish n pray for that day to come :) That would also mean that my dad's wishes r all fulfilled!
But it's okie if U can't as we are ald very contented with the life U provided us now being the sole breadwinner. What matters the most is that all of us are healthy!


It's scary "When you know that you just don't know"..
I thought I have walked out of that dark hole. Apparently, I "think" I have not. Trying to convince myself n others but I realised that I can't lie to myself. I know it takes time, IDK when I will stand neutral. I just hate this kind of feeling. Whenever component A & B appear in front of me, there will be a chemical reaction(GM) in me. "Thanks" to The Big Bang Theory for relating science terms to my life!